It's been a rough week... The Ranger's been training in Virginia since the 6th so a second birthday came and went without him at Home and without even a phone call. Then his dad broke news to me that the leave Brandon spoke of at Thanksgiving - where he would come home Before he deployed - might not happen at all if for any reason they Deployed early. Oh, and without notice too! This was 411 his dad said he recently received from Brandon, who told him he wasn't sure how to prepare me for this Possibility on his own...
Of course, I heard what was said but I decided to Ignore it. First of all, I know the Army and there isn't much the Army does quickly. Mine has always been a, hurry-up-and-wait Army experience. And second, there were heart-shaped cookies to bake and nothing Distracts me from worrisome thoughts like baking. Well, except for shopping, that is. Besides, the Army and I had a deal. Brandon missed coming home for Christmas so the battalion that just came back might have leave for Christmas - and in exchange, Brandon would have two weeks home in March, (possibly even on his Birthday!) before his scheduled deployment.
And then the call came Early this morning... The call that said Rangers aren't part of the, hurry-up-and-wait Army I'm used to. The call we were warned might come during his Ranger class graduation briefing when the Commander warned to expect our boys to move further, Faster and to fight harder without being able to tell us much. Least of all what we want to hear most, such as the, what, where, When, how and why of it all. The call that said you can't know where I'm going, when I'm going, why I'm going, what I'll be doing, have any contact with me or send me any Care packages, mom. The call that ultimately said, Get to Ft. Benning to see me as soon as you can.
While I listened to Brandon speak, I heard cool calm in his voice. The only Excitement expressed was excitement about his mission. The way Brandon delivered his News helped bring down the pounding coming from my chest I feared he might be able to hear through the phone. Our Ranger said he's ready. Ready to go and ready to come back.
As I pack for our Trip tonight I realize I'm ready too. Ready for him to Come back to me before I even have to let him go.
4 Comments:
My heart goes out to you and wish you all the stregth you need to get through the next few months.
It must be so difficult not not knowing any information about his mission.
I wish he were home already.
((HUGS)) my friend.
My heart breaks for you. Be strong and of good courage because He is in charge. Much love to you and prayers for your entire family.
Melanie
I came over from the Domestic Fringe. I just wanna give you a big hug. My younger son is in his second year at West Point, safe for now, but I feel all of your dreads coming in the next couple of years. May God bless you with peace and comfort and courage.
My prayers are with you and your son. My nephew deployed a month ago, but at least we are able to contact him via Facebook for now. Here is hoping that he is there and back in a moment, a blink, a nanosecond.
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